He used to watch me in my dreams. At night I could see him, touch him, speak with him and he was there every night. Throughout the day I could feel him watching me, and I never once feared anything. I couldn't be harmed when he was with him, it couldn't happen. My Pegasus would never allow it to happen.

He kept my father from killing me, my Pegasus. He gave me the strength to get away, to run and never turn around. I was never scared, because I knew... always... My Pegasus would be there, watching me; and one day, when I was old enough, he'd come and save me from myself as well. My Pegasus would be there... always... no matter what.... after all, he was mine... He was my Pegasus.

I was insane... the dreams stopped, but never the memories. I was losing my mind... the feeling of being watched faded, and the feeling of being needed grew stronger... Someone out there needed me, and they knew I needed them just as badly if not mad. They had to save me from myself, because I couldn't do. I had spent far too many years trying to forget myself, trying to change myself, and trying to fix everything else first. As long you smile, I won't bleed.

I feel lost. I'll tell no one.
I feel abandoned. I'll tell not a soul.
I know he's out, but no one will ever know. No one can ever know it, because then they too would see just how insane I was.... how insane I am...
Yet...
Somehow....
I still see him... even after the dreams faded... and sometimes... in the dark of the night I can feel him... he's there... waiting for me.... He just doesn't understand that I've needed him forever, ever since he disappeared... My Pegasus.

...and in the depth of night... when my dreams are silent and my mind races with voices that are no longer mine... I hate him.... I hate him for ever leaving me, but I know he knows... he'll only save me when I have no where else to go.... or when he knows I'm ready....

I wish he knew already... or I wish I was ready in his eyes by now.... those almost solid black eyes that remain with him even when he's able to hold me... but that's okay... and it's okay if I have to wait longer... I'll always wait...

...I'll always wait for my Pegasus.... even if insanity kills me.... I'll always wait....